A Day Made of Glass: Our Fututre?

So I decided to switch it up and start having some different content on my blog. There is a ton more that I am interested in. Did you guys know I've always been some what of a sci-fi buff? I have always enjoys movies that showed glimpses of the future, not far fetched notions like The Jetsons but the likes of I Robot and Surrogates. These films seems feasible as a possible advance.

I came across this clip of a possible near future society dominated by touch screen applications. Upon watching this clip I found many of the applications possible, such as the touch screen 3-D TV being that there are models by Panasonic emerging now. Many of the tools shown remind me of variations of the now popular I-Phone and I-Pad, more technologically advanced and the Kindle that's now a popular alternative to paper books.

What really appealed to me was the networking and business capabilities, being that I am going to be in a fast paced field I appreciate the quick communication, display options and overall ease that it provided the people to conduct their meeting via webcam.

Watching the clips, although amazed by the advancement I did wonder were some of them practical, such as the bus stop and highway signs that had LCD screens. The LCD billboards were reminiscent of those in Times Square and Tokyo.

Overall this piece demonstrated the power of innovative thinking, for the I-Phone was once just a notion and now one of the most popular pieces of technology. The clip stated at the beginning that this was in the "near" future, I hope that I will be able to witness an utilize theses tools in my career.

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Hey Helana...Where the HELL YOU BEEN?!

Hey Kuties!!! Theres no way for em to try and explain why Ive been away but lets just say Ive had a LOT going on in my life, as ALWAYS but hey what can ya do but try and get through it, sometimes having to neglect the thing you love the most, ie making vids.

With that being said, this is the first week of my spring semster at school so im back in the computer lab, i DIDNT get the macbook SAD FAAAAACE but its ok though, I might be receiving a laptop from someone next Wednesday FINGERS CROSSED!!!!!!

Whats been going on with me???? Too much to write, but the high points are, im still in school, still employed although idk how much longer that's gonna last. I did start neglecting my hair for a while, but I decided I cant let my circumstances ruin all og my hair work, so i recently ordered 2jars of coconut oil for a great deal on amazon *no plug intended* lol. Also I have received 2 products to review that i need to get to asap, One is a purse from an up and coming designer and another is an aryuvedic hair oil to try out.

Im thinking about posting as blog about some of the shows Ive been watching ie Bad Girls Club, RHOA, and THE GAME OMG IM SO GLAD ITS BACK!!!!

It may be a while before you see another vid from me so check back here to get the latest on ya girl.

Truthfully missing you guys
*Smooches*
Helana

So TIRED *Screams*

(even when things are tough, put a game face on, smile to keep from crying)

Well Ive been in school about 3 weeks now and OMG idk what it is but this semester has me really wiped out, maybe because Im taking an upper division English and a harder Math, added to the fact that my theater class is physical (jumping around and making sounds) and my photography class is 6 hours ending after 10pm. Idk just seems like I have to get up so early in order to find decent parking, as always at the start of the semester. It seems to be getting better as more and more people drop classes but this is killing me.



Maybe its because i CANT SLEEP!!! For about a month now I have been having nightmares and haven't been able to get a decent nights rest, i usually get to be after midnight or as late as 3AM, and being that I wake up @ 5:45 every morning...Im killing myself and the vanilla capacinno from 7 11 isn't cutting it. The pain in my back is ridiculous and my eyes look like Ive been partying for weeks and they hurt. Also I feel like Im having some digestion issues since some days I might not eat until the evening and the I go to bed...maybe thats why I feel so fat and outta shape.




On the bright side, I have been doing all of my school work and trying to get my financial aid situation together, then theres my cell phone issue, yall may have notices I ALWAYS have my blackberry, well I decided to switch providers and theyu gave me a Hell of a run around and Im still not situated and thats been a major stressor, I didnt realize how attached I am to it, its like my child lol. So for the next couple of weeks I will be without my beloved BBM or able to Twitter or facebook (yes I made one) unless its from a computer, and yes as I mentioned BOTH of my laptops are trippin.




I dont wanna use the abbreviation FML but i guess I can just say FM situation right now, I know it will get better soon but all I want is a decent nights rest, its Thursday night around 10:20, Ive been invited out but declined I need some SLeeeeeeeeeeP, after this post I plan on soaking in the tub for a long time and listen to some music on my phone, well no Pandora since my net isn't working!!! Ahhhhhh, I know better times are coming but blahhh being in the moment sucks ass





MY RACCOON EYES!!!!! They hurt so bad. S/O to the lady in class who told me my eyes were dark and puffy...as if I didnt know...GEE THANX!

First Day of School, Goals and Things of that Nature

So babes let me start off by saying its nothing short of a miracle that Im able to post this blog. I have been going thru some Geek Squad nightmare. My Dell laptop has totally died on me, and as we speak Im tying on my first laptop that my Papa (rip) bought me in 2006, I originally stopped using it because of spy ware and needed an upgrade anyway so i basically buried it in the back of a closet. Im so glad Ive never thrown it out or given it away because it sure did come in handy. Its still infected with spy ware but it works better than my Dell so I figure it would be cheaper to get this one fixed which i will be doing soon, Im just a bit financially challenged (details shortly)

ANYWHOOOO, well I started Fall semester day and I will say as far as the class goes, which is Theater I really enjoyed it, but I went through some major BS, I went to financial aid just to make sure i had all of my ducks in a row to make sure I get my MONEY on time when they try to tell me I am not eligible based on summer....I GOT A FREAKIN A, but i did drop a class but as far as I knew that shouldn't have hindered me, so now I have to go thru this while appeals process and blah blah blah. I dont even wanna talk about it anymore its all BS all these budget cuts that Cali is going thru and I get the run around.....

On a brighter note, I feel really good about this semester, with each passing one Im closer to my career and degree, Im just trying to take things a day at a time and not over extend myself, IO just want to pass my exams and get on with my life, I cant stress.

My goals include just getting good marks in class and making more friends and meeting new people to expand my horizons. Also, its been 8 months now...I NEED A JOB!!!!! Ive been getting by so far but Im starting to feel the strain and I miss having my own financial freedom, I went by my old job Bath n Body Works, and from what I hear things are still under thr reign of the evil witch but she may be leaving soon, if she does Im running back lol everyone still loves me up there, that heffa just had some type of personal vendetta against me, I will never forget how she ruined my anniversary smh. Oh well, also some other stores in that mall are hiring Im gonna turn in some apps asap, Im hoping to get hired by F21 that would be so great, but at this point i will take what I can get.

Also Ive been praying more and trying to have a better connection with spirituality, ive been stretching and exercising in the mornings its seemed to have made me feel better, but hey enough of that mushy stuff right. All I can do is be me, and you guys can watch it all go down right.

Yea so that was a mouthfull, by the way that pic is from a couple weeks ago, my hair has gone thru some crazy mess, Im thinking about cutting like 5 inches off and starting over the cold season, yay or nay?

Till next time... *Smooches*

Odd Chick Out

OK babes idk if this gonna be a rant or just blasting my thoughts out, either way here goes...


Odd Man Out: One who, because of STRANGENESS of behavior or belief, stands alone in or out from a group


OK first off the definition of this is what gets me, I don't think that I'm STRANGE but apparently that's the way I come off. it appears that I'm always the one who doesn't agree or go with the flow of everyone, that I'm always singled out. that I'm too "weird" that my actions don't follow the norm...

How do I feel about that????

Well initially i should be glad because conformity was never my thing, i pride myself on being "different" and having a very open and accepting mind I feel that's what makes me special.....

on the other hand....


when it comes to dealing with others there always seems to be a conflict...its like i cant be accepted for who i am and most importantly who I'm NOT. With "friends" the few that Ive had I'm usually the one looked at funny when it comes to suggesting things to do, and then I'm the bad guy when I choose not to follow the group, and with guys, the fact that I'm not slut,(because based on what Ive been told by guys I should be more out there based on how i look, bullshit yes I know but that's another post) so I'm looked at funny for just wanting to watch movies or have a nice meal instead of going to "functions".

i get it...I'm "weird" for a 20 year old "pretty" girl, i suppose i should be at the club every weekend and dating 6 guys at once and rolling with a group of equally pretty girls and tearing the malls up. but alas, id rather read a book watch family guy and make YouTube videos about my hair.

Or that

I like to garden
Still buy coloring books
Collect stuffed animals
Like to take hundreds of pictures of myself just to make sure I look ok
I look forward to buying school supplies
I get nervous in elevators
Im scared of midgets
I sleep on top of my covers
I prefer baths to showers
I have trouble saying words with S's
That I get sad when it rains
I can laugh for hours at something that happened months ago
I cry when I watch the Big Bird movie
If everyone chooses blue I'll pick red JUST BECAUSE I dont wanna be like everyone else

what do i want???

For one, Id LOVE to have people in my life who ACCEPT me and NOT JUDGE me for who IM NOT, and not try to run my life and tell me what I SHOULD be doing with my time

As far as a guy goes, my past relationships have basically been of convenience, never really having a healthy coexistence, either straight bullshit or biding my time because its just nice to have people around. Being that I'm so accepting and open minded I have let a lot of freaks in my life which is bad, people who have appeared normal to me but in time revealed their true self, to be so extreme as one guy who put his hands on me...

There is a guy i am EXTREMELY interested in at the moment but that situation in itself is messy, I think I may fucked up my chances with him because of my rash decisions, I really like him, he seems to GET me which is rare, and he appears, well APPEARED to really like me. I could go on and on, the fact that I was actually attracted to them which is rare as hell, and that they make me laugh and I felt amazing when I was with them after such a short time...and my weird ass went and fucked it up, I don't think their feelin me anymore,and that hurts I feel like I can kick my own ass for that. SMMFH


But what can I say Im Helana, the weirdo, the different one, the one who stands out from a crowd, who dances to a different drum, fuck the drum I dance to music i hear in my own dam head, I cant help it thats just me.


#DONTJUDGEME

SMILE ;-)

Good morning everyone, its 7:55 in the AM and I woke up with a positive outlook. I have decided to have a BS free today, I will be cutting out the following things

1.Negative thoughts

2.Bad Words

3.JUDGEMENT

4.Complaints

5.Hate

6.Tears

Basically anything that doesnt ensure me having a happy positive day. Theres enough people being Bitter Betty's, why should I contribute, no on is gonna steal my smile today.

In a world so ugly at times, why not be one less, do something different today, smile at a stranger, hold a door open for someone, erase that nasty facebook status or evil tweet, resist the urge to call the girl u dont like at ur job a bitch lol

I hope you all have a beautiful Thursday, if no one has told you today, I LOVE YOU, YOURE SPECIAL, YOU MATTER!!

Don't be so serious, you'll have a HEART ATTACK!

I heart this song, it was just right for this vid ;-), luv ya guys!!

Car Accident

Saturday night Erica and I were rear ended after going to a Burger King drive thru. The other driver drove off it was a hit and run. We were going to have another club night at the club where her hubby works in Long Beach, so we parked in the lot and called the cops, THEY NEVER SHOWED.

Meanwhile after the shock wore off Erica started having a bad headache and my arms were hurting. Her hubby ran over from his job and took us to the hospital, by the time we got the hospital, Erica could hardly walk. We went to check in and the receptionist was running her mouth laughing with the patient ahead of us, WTF right? SO we finally were given patient bracelets and told to wait. Mind you, were in club wear, lil tops and colorful eye make up and hair, the works, so the other people in the waiting room were looking at us pretty crazy, maybe they thought we were strippers or escorts of something.

They put Erica in a neck brace and wheeled her off and called me in shortly after. When the doctor came to my room I had the butt-out gown, she asked what happened and she was outraged that the other driver kept going. She checked me out and went thru my whole body, my right elbow, left shoulder, knee and back were killing me so they ordered x-rays. They asked if I wanted a pain shot and I almost yelled out HELL YEA, so a nurse came started an IV line and injected some muscle relaxer, next thing I knew ZZZZzzzzzz I was out. Erica's hubby is such a nice guy he kept checking on both of us the whole time.

Some male nurse came and took me to get X-rays, he had salami breath eww, and he had me in awkward positions that hurt but hey had to do it to get them done. By the time it was all done, Erica and her hubby came to my room since she was done first, her neck was really sore and she had a bad headache still. The doctor gave me a prescription and put my arm in a sling and sent us home. My elbow, shoulder and knee were sprained and my back was on fire.

We rested up the next day and ended up going back to Long Beach to the police department to file a report. We waited almost 2 hours, in the mean time 2 gay guys came in, one had been beaten up, he was 17 and and the guy who beat him up was 28 he said he met him off MySpace (be careful who you meet online!!!).

when the officers came out to take our report, they were like "Whoa are your injuries from the accident" we must've looked pretty beat up. We had on basically pajamas, you know comfortable lounging clothes and our bandages. We gave them all of out info, and the description of the car and drier, LUCKILY we had the plate number!!! I hope they catch her!!!!

So for now I'm just resting, hopefully I'm able to go to school, I cant drive because of my arm, but I'll make it work. I'm grateful because it could have been worse, her kids could've been in the car or we could have been critically hurt. Be safe out there guys!

Here's me in the emergency room, on a lighter note, I tired out my 120 pallet and did a yellow and lime green eye. Too bad I didn't get to show it off.

Should I Make a FaceBook???

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Respect ME!

So Im pretty much used to getting positive and NEGATIVE attention from guys. Usually it comes in the form of; from either a nice compliment or a lewd comment about my body. Growing up I learned not to just accept it as something being wrong with me but as people being ignorant, rather try to put me on blast for them being too intimidated to approach me with respect. Well today was no different, well in a way since this one invloved a third party, well check out the vid and give me your thoughts.

Downtown LA- Trial visit ;-)

Hey babes, well ya know summer is coming and in keeping with my whole "girlie" trend I'm trying to keep, I wanted to get a jump on getting clothes and accessories. So me, my bff Erica and my cousin Jasmine headed downtown LA to the Fashion District to an area called the "Alley" which is pretty much a ton of whole sale vendors with clothes and other items at really low prices. There are so many booths and shops that they actually compete, like if someone has it for 15 bucks they will lower it to 10 just to get the sale. SO we went down and we weren't really in a position to go all out, we more so went to check it out so when we come back soon we know what to look for. I did find a pair of leggings, some stud earrings for a dollar and finally an NYX jumbo pencil in MILK! I cant wait to try it.

Erica and I found a shoe store with endless shelves of heels flats sandals ect, you guys know my shoe struggle, but I actually fit their size 10!!! I tried on some pairs and I am sooo going back to get them.

Overall it was a nice outing we saw so many things we want, I think this might be a good supplement for the mall, same items lower prices, more variety. Only downside is that it can become very crowded, well it was a Saturday, so maybe next time I'll go during the week. ;-)

I will be sure to snap some more pix the next time we go.

Here's Erica trying on some glasses, she was going for the nerd look lol

All these wallets check out these prices

One of the millions of walls of bags