Idol Eye Candy DeAndre Brackensick

Now, like a lot of people, i enjoy watching the audition episodes of American Idol, always good for a laugh. Through as the competition moves on I usually lose interest and stop watching. I just so happen to catch the episode last night which was the group week episode, there was a lot of drama going on so i decided to sit and watch lol. When the segment came on about the group of mothers who sat front row judging the contestants and who were smack talking about how their kids were much better I just HAD to see what their kids could do if they really were all that.

Well the group of teens performed and did an excellent job, i really liked the second girl who sang and the song melody and such, when suddenly the screen flashed to the cutest face Ive sen in a while. He was so cute he hit an incredible high note when he was singing, I became a fan insatnly lol.

His name is DeAndre Brackensickm he's 16 from San Jose, California. Being that I wasn't really into the show I didn't catch his audition, maybe I can YouTube it. I think he's very talented and stood out among his group mates, i hope he goes far in the competition, I can see him being the next CB or someone on that level. Least now I have a reason to tune in to Idol. Geesh if only he wasn't so young lol

Hey Helana...Where the HELL YOU BEEN?!

Hey Kuties!!! Theres no way for em to try and explain why Ive been away but lets just say Ive had a LOT going on in my life, as ALWAYS but hey what can ya do but try and get through it, sometimes having to neglect the thing you love the most, ie making vids.

With that being said, this is the first week of my spring semster at school so im back in the computer lab, i DIDNT get the macbook SAD FAAAAACE but its ok though, I might be receiving a laptop from someone next Wednesday FINGERS CROSSED!!!!!!

Whats been going on with me???? Too much to write, but the high points are, im still in school, still employed although idk how much longer that's gonna last. I did start neglecting my hair for a while, but I decided I cant let my circumstances ruin all og my hair work, so i recently ordered 2jars of coconut oil for a great deal on amazon *no plug intended* lol. Also I have received 2 products to review that i need to get to asap, One is a purse from an up and coming designer and another is an aryuvedic hair oil to try out.

Im thinking about posting as blog about some of the shows Ive been watching ie Bad Girls Club, RHOA, and THE GAME OMG IM SO GLAD ITS BACK!!!!

It may be a while before you see another vid from me so check back here to get the latest on ya girl.

Truthfully missing you guys
*Smooches*
Helana

Sexies: Quincy Brown

Ok so pretty much you all know I dig Trey Songz as far as looks, and more recently Drake has gotten cuter to me and my all time fav Ginuwine. Well I was on twitter earlier and I finally browsed the follow suggestions and came across Diddy's step son Quincy, and boy or boy did I forget how sexiful he was lol. So I tweeted abt the suggestion and he rt me lol I was kinda embarrassed but oh well, I went to his site and *Jamaican accent* lawdamercy!!!

Now my bestie clowns on me for liking the "pretty boys" like Ginuwine and Juniior, but Quincy seems to have a pretty yet tough look to him like he can fight lol, im silly I know but yes he is added to my list. I just wanna run my fingers thru that curly hurrrr lol....wait s he legal?

His mixtape cover...look at those LIPS!! Mwa! lol

Now tell me him sitting there in that vest and those shades isn't the sexist thing

Big Girl Strip Tease O_o

Ok so I havent got on WSHH in a while and as soon as I do WOOOOW. So this chick decided to put it all out there and all I can do is SMH.

Im all for being comfy with ur body and such but, I wouldnt even put myself out there like that if I had the body of Beyonce, and you know this girl is already a target, on both posts I saw they referenced Precious, pretty much making fun of this girl, but hey she knew what she was getting into when she was recording so hey there goes her "exposure". Looking at her in the face I think that this is the famous JBarbie20 who frequently compares herself to Nicki Minaj, picks tweet battles with other girls, and flirts with guys by posting nude pix of herself.


Is she wrong?

So TIRED *Screams*

(even when things are tough, put a game face on, smile to keep from crying)

Well Ive been in school about 3 weeks now and OMG idk what it is but this semester has me really wiped out, maybe because Im taking an upper division English and a harder Math, added to the fact that my theater class is physical (jumping around and making sounds) and my photography class is 6 hours ending after 10pm. Idk just seems like I have to get up so early in order to find decent parking, as always at the start of the semester. It seems to be getting better as more and more people drop classes but this is killing me.



Maybe its because i CANT SLEEP!!! For about a month now I have been having nightmares and haven't been able to get a decent nights rest, i usually get to be after midnight or as late as 3AM, and being that I wake up @ 5:45 every morning...Im killing myself and the vanilla capacinno from 7 11 isn't cutting it. The pain in my back is ridiculous and my eyes look like Ive been partying for weeks and they hurt. Also I feel like Im having some digestion issues since some days I might not eat until the evening and the I go to bed...maybe thats why I feel so fat and outta shape.




On the bright side, I have been doing all of my school work and trying to get my financial aid situation together, then theres my cell phone issue, yall may have notices I ALWAYS have my blackberry, well I decided to switch providers and theyu gave me a Hell of a run around and Im still not situated and thats been a major stressor, I didnt realize how attached I am to it, its like my child lol. So for the next couple of weeks I will be without my beloved BBM or able to Twitter or facebook (yes I made one) unless its from a computer, and yes as I mentioned BOTH of my laptops are trippin.




I dont wanna use the abbreviation FML but i guess I can just say FM situation right now, I know it will get better soon but all I want is a decent nights rest, its Thursday night around 10:20, Ive been invited out but declined I need some SLeeeeeeeeeeP, after this post I plan on soaking in the tub for a long time and listen to some music on my phone, well no Pandora since my net isn't working!!! Ahhhhhh, I know better times are coming but blahhh being in the moment sucks ass





MY RACCOON EYES!!!!! They hurt so bad. S/O to the lady in class who told me my eyes were dark and puffy...as if I didnt know...GEE THANX!

YOUTUBE PARTNERSHIP

I know some of you saw the vid already so there isnt much to write, I just figured since I haven't been posting much I should share it here, I want to really step it all up now so I can be up there with some of the more popular youtubers, couldn't have done it without all of you so thanx to each and every subbie and viewer, I'm open to suggestion so let me know what I can do to improve.

My Bear

I still sleep with this bear, my prom date/first LOVE won this for me @ Knotts Berry Farm theme park the day after prom, I wanted the pink one but his fave color was purple *blah*. That was in 2007. Just a lil random piece of trivia about me...enjoy hehe *Smooches*

PRAYER (A Haiku)

Let me have the strength

I plead everyday for

Better days ahead

First Day of School, Goals and Things of that Nature

So babes let me start off by saying its nothing short of a miracle that Im able to post this blog. I have been going thru some Geek Squad nightmare. My Dell laptop has totally died on me, and as we speak Im tying on my first laptop that my Papa (rip) bought me in 2006, I originally stopped using it because of spy ware and needed an upgrade anyway so i basically buried it in the back of a closet. Im so glad Ive never thrown it out or given it away because it sure did come in handy. Its still infected with spy ware but it works better than my Dell so I figure it would be cheaper to get this one fixed which i will be doing soon, Im just a bit financially challenged (details shortly)

ANYWHOOOO, well I started Fall semester day and I will say as far as the class goes, which is Theater I really enjoyed it, but I went through some major BS, I went to financial aid just to make sure i had all of my ducks in a row to make sure I get my MONEY on time when they try to tell me I am not eligible based on summer....I GOT A FREAKIN A, but i did drop a class but as far as I knew that shouldn't have hindered me, so now I have to go thru this while appeals process and blah blah blah. I dont even wanna talk about it anymore its all BS all these budget cuts that Cali is going thru and I get the run around.....

On a brighter note, I feel really good about this semester, with each passing one Im closer to my career and degree, Im just trying to take things a day at a time and not over extend myself, IO just want to pass my exams and get on with my life, I cant stress.

My goals include just getting good marks in class and making more friends and meeting new people to expand my horizons. Also, its been 8 months now...I NEED A JOB!!!!! Ive been getting by so far but Im starting to feel the strain and I miss having my own financial freedom, I went by my old job Bath n Body Works, and from what I hear things are still under thr reign of the evil witch but she may be leaving soon, if she does Im running back lol everyone still loves me up there, that heffa just had some type of personal vendetta against me, I will never forget how she ruined my anniversary smh. Oh well, also some other stores in that mall are hiring Im gonna turn in some apps asap, Im hoping to get hired by F21 that would be so great, but at this point i will take what I can get.

Also Ive been praying more and trying to have a better connection with spirituality, ive been stretching and exercising in the mornings its seemed to have made me feel better, but hey enough of that mushy stuff right. All I can do is be me, and you guys can watch it all go down right.

Yea so that was a mouthfull, by the way that pic is from a couple weeks ago, my hair has gone thru some crazy mess, Im thinking about cutting like 5 inches off and starting over the cold season, yay or nay?

Till next time... *Smooches*

Birthday Biz

Hey you guys know Im hitting the oh so anticipated 21 soon on Aug 10th, just wanted to shout out my fellow August babies, wanna be listed hit me on youtube. I still dont really know what Im going to be doing so stay tuned.

Youtubers

AMARiSBBy09 Aug 8th

AndreaA819 Aug 19th

MargeAnn819 Aug 19th

rellyrell04 Aug 21st

Maia Campbell is still sick...pray for her.

So we all remember the show In The House starring LL Cool J, and Miss Maia Campbell who played Tiffany, she also played in the short lived South Central the series as well as many urban films. Well she was in the news months ago after being filmed in LA having what appeared to be a drug induced rant. After there were other videos leaked of her nude and singing while some unnamed men egged her on. (pix below Not long after she was reported to have sought rehab and was expecting a child, I was happy to see was back on her feet doing well, until I went on WSHH and saw this......

From the looks of the palm trees this looks like the west side Crenshaw Inglewood part of LA where she is known to be from. I just hope she gets the help she needs and that people stop laughing at her like its a joke and realize shes sick.

Beat Down, a new maternity work out

So I haven't been on world star literally in WEEKS, so I was catching up, many of you probably have already seen this but whoa I just had to share it.

So from what I gather the girl in the pink wanted to fight the one in the T shirt and blue dress jumped in, later it shows the other 2 girls i think they're Spanish were with the guy in the van.

First off, fighting is immature, but while PREGNANT? Think about ur child cmon son! I also was always taught that if you must fight it should just be head up and that jumping was a coward move. As for the guy he was wrong for hitting a female yet she still did step to him as a man, basically this was a big mess


On the bright side, I like that blue dress and her light brown curls lol

Some things just arent worth the $

Ok first of all, why would she agree to do this stupid shit?

Who came up with this?

and most importantly

*Gay dude from Baby Boy voice* FORTY DOLLARS???

So basically she made an ass of her self eating a LIVE ASS BABY MOUSE for 2 twenty dollar bills..

That shit could have rabies or make her sick af, and she did it to entertain some dumb guys in a tat shop. Was she a drug addict who really wanted the money, a prostitute or just an attention whore. I see here's fun in certain stunts like maybe if she ate a spicy pepper but a live ass ANIMAL #Wheretheydo that

SMMFH... your thoughts?

Odd Chick Out

OK babes idk if this gonna be a rant or just blasting my thoughts out, either way here goes...


Odd Man Out: One who, because of STRANGENESS of behavior or belief, stands alone in or out from a group


OK first off the definition of this is what gets me, I don't think that I'm STRANGE but apparently that's the way I come off. it appears that I'm always the one who doesn't agree or go with the flow of everyone, that I'm always singled out. that I'm too "weird" that my actions don't follow the norm...

How do I feel about that????

Well initially i should be glad because conformity was never my thing, i pride myself on being "different" and having a very open and accepting mind I feel that's what makes me special.....

on the other hand....


when it comes to dealing with others there always seems to be a conflict...its like i cant be accepted for who i am and most importantly who I'm NOT. With "friends" the few that Ive had I'm usually the one looked at funny when it comes to suggesting things to do, and then I'm the bad guy when I choose not to follow the group, and with guys, the fact that I'm not slut,(because based on what Ive been told by guys I should be more out there based on how i look, bullshit yes I know but that's another post) so I'm looked at funny for just wanting to watch movies or have a nice meal instead of going to "functions".

i get it...I'm "weird" for a 20 year old "pretty" girl, i suppose i should be at the club every weekend and dating 6 guys at once and rolling with a group of equally pretty girls and tearing the malls up. but alas, id rather read a book watch family guy and make YouTube videos about my hair.

Or that

I like to garden
Still buy coloring books
Collect stuffed animals
Like to take hundreds of pictures of myself just to make sure I look ok
I look forward to buying school supplies
I get nervous in elevators
Im scared of midgets
I sleep on top of my covers
I prefer baths to showers
I have trouble saying words with S's
That I get sad when it rains
I can laugh for hours at something that happened months ago
I cry when I watch the Big Bird movie
If everyone chooses blue I'll pick red JUST BECAUSE I dont wanna be like everyone else

what do i want???

For one, Id LOVE to have people in my life who ACCEPT me and NOT JUDGE me for who IM NOT, and not try to run my life and tell me what I SHOULD be doing with my time

As far as a guy goes, my past relationships have basically been of convenience, never really having a healthy coexistence, either straight bullshit or biding my time because its just nice to have people around. Being that I'm so accepting and open minded I have let a lot of freaks in my life which is bad, people who have appeared normal to me but in time revealed their true self, to be so extreme as one guy who put his hands on me...

There is a guy i am EXTREMELY interested in at the moment but that situation in itself is messy, I think I may fucked up my chances with him because of my rash decisions, I really like him, he seems to GET me which is rare, and he appears, well APPEARED to really like me. I could go on and on, the fact that I was actually attracted to them which is rare as hell, and that they make me laugh and I felt amazing when I was with them after such a short time...and my weird ass went and fucked it up, I don't think their feelin me anymore,and that hurts I feel like I can kick my own ass for that. SMMFH


But what can I say Im Helana, the weirdo, the different one, the one who stands out from a crowd, who dances to a different drum, fuck the drum I dance to music i hear in my own dam head, I cant help it thats just me.


#DONTJUDGEME

Ex Boyfriend (a haiku)

I do despise thee

Thou who art so full of shit

All hail king of lies

(This photo was originally taken with me thinking of my boss @ bath n body works lol)

Trey Gets Freaky...oh my

Ok first off, IM MAD I WASNT HERE TO SEE THIS!!!! Omg!!! When i watched this my jaw was dropped like damnnnnnnn lol. Im only wishing they hadn't done that crowd shot I wanted to see his whole demonstration hehehehe #dontjudgeme. Im sorry but all they nay sayers MUST admit, Trey is coming into his own, Ive been down since I Gotta Make It, but alot of the bandwagon jumpers aren't giving him his props. People like to criticize that Trey just sytands there and sings and doesn't dance or anything, he may not have been dancing but damn it I'd pay to see him get down like that!! He's coming to LA Sepetember 11th and I will do everything in my freakin power to see that shit!!! OMG TREY

Breezy Songz

I saw this on worldstar, it was cute, now I know some people are gonna think this is shade being thrown but Chris clearly says its not a diss. Im pretty sure artists imitate each other all the time lol. It actually sounded kinda good lol. Like I said on twitter, give CB a break, I wasn't always the biggest fan but Im coming around.

SMILE ;-)

Good morning everyone, its 7:55 in the AM and I woke up with a positive outlook. I have decided to have a BS free today, I will be cutting out the following things

1.Negative thoughts

2.Bad Words

3.JUDGEMENT

4.Complaints

5.Hate

6.Tears

Basically anything that doesnt ensure me having a happy positive day. Theres enough people being Bitter Betty's, why should I contribute, no on is gonna steal my smile today.

In a world so ugly at times, why not be one less, do something different today, smile at a stranger, hold a door open for someone, erase that nasty facebook status or evil tweet, resist the urge to call the girl u dont like at ur job a bitch lol

I hope you all have a beautiful Thursday, if no one has told you today, I LOVE YOU, YOURE SPECIAL, YOU MATTER!!

Don't be so serious, you'll have a HEART ATTACK!

I heart this song, it was just right for this vid ;-), luv ya guys!!

Model Spotlight: Jasmine Sanders

Hey boos, k you know I SORTA had an interest in modeling, still debating if this is the summer I decide to jump head first into taking it seriously...but hey thats another blog post lol. Anyway, there are a number of certain models that I really like, this model I have seen but I just could never find out her name, turns out she is Jasmine Sanders, who recently gained more public notice for dating Chris Brown. When I saw her I was like hey thats her lol, but any way, Im gonna start showing some of the models I most admire the work of, I'll start with her. I really like the photos she takes, she has a classic beauty look which is hard to find these days with all the vixens and booty girls lol, I LOVE her hair, it makes me wanna go back blond, only for a moment though. She's 19 currently signed to Boss Models in New York, I wish her much more continued success, go girl!!

Heres a music video actually called Dear Jasmine that she starred in, werk girl!!

Wake Up Wake Up Wake Up its the First of the month

Hey babes, so I know haven't been doing any actual "blogging" lately, but Ive been really busy, and honestly have had much to really talk about, with so much going on. Well today is June first, and I have a few things in store this month that I will probably talk about. Well first off, Im ending off another semester of school, one more closer to my degree!! I am so eager for this break, Im gonna have a few weeks off before summer school so i plan on filming a few thing for you guys and posting alot more. I have had somethings that will carry over, I plan on doing some relationship topics, and touch on some domestic violence and abusive relations ship issue videos as well as eating disorders, depression and other issue alotta ladies face.

There's alot i want to do this summer, especially the beach, and visiting theme parks. I turn 21 this summer and although i may not be balling outta control i really want to enjoy my bday for once, not saying all my bdays have been terrible but i just want this one to be memorable, ya know you only have that BIG 21 once, so i at least want some fond memories to look back on.

So hold on babes, there's more to come from me, I promise i will try to spice my blog up, so i can have more than 13 followers lol.

Smooches